For what should I ask?

Sunday 8/22/2021
Rooke Chapel Worship
2 Kings 2:10-12, 3:3-14

If you know one thing about King Solomon,
you probably know, that he was wise.
Tradition holds him as the author of great wisdom literature,
and a just and wise ruler.

If you know two or three things about him,
you probably know him as the builder of the Temple,
the ruler over a vast, united Kingdom,
and a man of great wealth.
You may even know,
some of his more troubling details,
like the 700 wives he was said to have.

Solomon is both a picture of success,
and complicated human,
and a critique, in the end, of power and monarchy.

What you probably did not know about him,
prior to reading this morning’s text – though.
is that he suffered from imposter syndrome,
as he ascended to the throne.

He becomes King,
and makes the requisite sacrifices to God,
and goes to sleep,
and God comes to him in a dream and says,
“ask me for anything”
and Solomon says,
Um…thanks for making me King.
Appreciate it.
Would like to note –
“I am only a little child; I do not know how to go out or come in.”
My study bible suggests that the phrase,
“I am only a little child” in its original form,
would suggest that Solomon was “about 20 years old” at this moment. (New Oxford Annotated Bible)

Perhaps you have found yourself wandering this campus this week,
about 20 years old,
looking for a particular room, in one of our Labyrinthine buildings,
and thought to yourself: “I do not know how to go out or come in”
I’ve been there.
I still never know which side of the ELC, I’m going to come out of,
when I leave the building

Perhaps you find yourself wondering,
in this period of transition,
this period of orientation,
if you belong here.
if you’re good enough,
if you’re smart enough,
if you have gifts to offer.

Perhaps as we emerge from a year of hybrid learning,
and social distancing,
we wonder if we remember how to do anything.
If you’re a freckled girl,
headed to a new school building,

you’re not sure you’ll like.
Or if you practiced your bored face,
over the summer,
in hopes of impressing your friends.
Or if wonder if you have anything at all to offer your students.
If so, know – at the very least –
that you stand in the company, of one of the richest, and wisest, and most powerful men, in all of scripture, and history, and literature.
“I am only a little child, and I do not know how to go out or to come in.”

One of the great secrets of the world,
is that we all feel like imposters from time to time.
From those who never imagined attending a place like this,
to those returning to teaching after a tough year.
those who are privileged and advantaged.
to those who are here because of generosity and scholarships.
to great and powerful kings, on the cusp of their rule.
We all wonder, from time to time, if we belong.

And we pretend most of the time to be fine.
At its best, this wonder if we have anything at all to offer,
fills us with humility and empathy for our fellow travelers.
Which are – we’ll discuss shortly – intimately bound up with wisdom.
At its best, it grounds us and does work for us.

But at its worst, it remains hidden,
and teaches us to keep our thoughts to ourselves.
it keeps our light hidden under a bushel. and closes us off.

we’ll gather this semester with a theme, which is “big questions.”
And most of our big questions, we will draw directly from scripture.
“Who is my neighbor?”
“How often must I forgive?”
Can any of you by worrying add a single hour to your span of life?”
Am I my brother’s keeper?
How long. oh Lord, must we wait?
Some of the questions will have clear and important answers,
(everyone, often, no, yes, and not forever – if you’re keeping track.)

but you may have noticed, that Jesus asked a lot of questions.
And he answered lots of questions, with questions.
So if Jesus is the embodiment of the divine.
The Word made flesh.
This seems to me an important signal.

One of the great contemporary Rabbis, Abraham Joshua Heschel said,
“We are closer to God when we are asking questions than when we think we have the answers.”
And that resonates with me.
Because I think,
and have experienced,
God is bigger than words,
and bigger than simple answers,
and is found -as often as not – in the asking, and the wondering

This week, our scripture has an implicit question,
as God comes to Solomon in a dream, and says,
ask me for anything.
and the question comes back “for what should we ask?”

God is not a wish granting genie,
you may have noticed.
Otherwise, I imagine this pandemic would have been over long ago.

Rather, I think, our ultimate picture of God,
is one who loves us, cherishes us, just as we are.
But does not wish to leave us just as we are.
But rather calls us,
to deeper faith,
deeper justice,
deeper wisdom.

you, my dear friends, like Solomon, have manifold gifts.
you are indeed good enough,
and smart enough.
and you are here for a reason.
I am confident in that,
even if you are not,
and even if we have not yet met.

And I might suggest humbly,
that that reason, goes beyond earning potential.
or family expectation.
or self-advancement.

You are here for a purpose.
or perhaps many purposes.
And you are here, to explore and discover those purposes, in community.
It is an amazing gift.

But it is not enough to be smart.
It is not enough to be ambitious.
You are here to become more wise.
You have come here to develop a wise and discerning mind.
Because the world needs wise people.

There are plenty of smart people,
who have led us to disaster.
plenty of ambitious people,
who have gained only for themselves.

How many smart and ambitious billionaires,
are trying to shoot themselves into space right now?
I’ve lost count.
Even as people hunger?
Even as inequity abounds?
Even as our planet is on fire?

The world needs wise people.
wisdom, we often associate with age, right?
The white bearded Gandalf and Dumbledore types.
But we see here, a different picture of wisdom,
which is mixed intimately and ultimately,
with humility.
Wisdom and age are correlated, perhaps,
but most assuredly not causal.

wisdom demands humility.
wisdom needs humility.
wisdom cannot exist,
if we think we know everything.
if we are unable to take counsel from those who know more,
or have experienced more.

So, trust, that you have much to offer,
and know that you have much to learn,
spend a few moments each week,
listening to the gentle voice of God,
pushing and pulling you,
toward your purposes,
and surround yourself with people who bring out your best, and most curious.
And you will become more wise.

And most of all, my dear friends. know how deeply you are loved.
Wisdom, ultimately, is grounded in the faith,
that you are deeply, wonderfully, and unbelievably loved,
by a God who would do anything for you.
Who is still speaking to you,
through dreams, and friends, and worship, and prayer.

You are precious,
and unique,
and valuable, already.
Not because of anything you have done, or will do.
But because love is who God is.

And I thank God for you.
and for bringing you here.
and for bringing us together. this ragtag bunch of misfits,
wondering all the while if we belong here.

You needn’t make a thousand burnt offerings – thank God.
You need only walk your path,
in wonder and faith, in trust and love.
You need only say yes to the love God is already showing you:
in the good times and the hard times alike.
as you walk the path toward humility and wisdom.

for what should we ask?
simply that.
the strength to stay on the path.
the trust that we are loved,
and have something to offer.
the ability to ask the big questions,
and become more humble and more wise.
and a community to walk with us. This is a good start!

and let the people say together: Amen.


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Seen

Rooke Chapel, 10.5.2020
The 31st Sunday in COVID Time, and the 8th of the Fall Semester
John 8: 2-11
If we were to go up on the sidewalk,
and ask passers-by,
what quotes they know from Jesus,
it’s fair to think today’s would register.
“Let him who is without sin cast the first stone.”
Or something like it
If we were on family feud:
“One hundred people surveyed,
“Things Jesus said.”
We might not hit the buzzer and say it first,
it would be on the board, don’t you think?
I am the way the truth the light
Love one another as I have loved you.
Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you.
Let anyone among you.
A reasonable guess, at least.
This is one of the stories we know, I think,
about Jesus.
One of the stories we love, perhaps.
And rightly so.
It’s great.
Jesus is subversive,
disruptive,
and, I think, lovable.
I imagine him standing in the middle,
of this whirlwind,
of anger and violence,
this plot and ploy to undermine his credibility
This mingling mob of power and gender and judgment and law,
and division.
And he says,
look at this woman,
and look at yourselves,

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On our way, rejoicing.

“The Royal Procession of the Ethiopian Eunuch” by Julian Van Dyke
“The Royal Procession of the Ethiopian Eunuch” by Julian Van Dyke

Rooke Chapel, Bucknell University,
Sunday 9/6/2020

 Acts 8: 26-38
If you have a certain kind of bible,
it’s likely that there are headings,
listed above certain stories.

These headings (and the numbers and chapters for that matter)
are a much later addition to our text.
They are commentary.

And some of it is quite influential.
You may know the phrase,
“God forth and make disciples of all nations”
as the “Great Commission”
when in fact the phrase “great commission”
is nowhere to be found,
in scripture itself.
Only in commentary.
And it is a great commission,
but so too is “love others as I have loved you.”
and “whatever you do to the least of these, you do to me.”

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Wider and Wider, Still

Mark 7: 24-30
 Rooke Chapel Worship, Sunday 8.30.20
Bucknell University
 
 
I love a good, human Jesus story.
our stories of him,
are always pushing and pulling between,
the divine pole and the human pole.
Because it’s a paradox that he’s somehow both, right?
This amazing gift,
Emmanuel,
God with us.
Fully divine. Fully human.
 
More stories of more sorts,
as ever,
I think, help enrich our picture of him,
help us relate and connect.
 
But I especially like a Jesus with his feet on the ground.
I like a dusty Jesus.
And a hungry Jesus.
A Jesus who weeps once in a while over a friend.
Or gets annoyed with his disciples,
or gets mad at injustice.
A Jesus who gets tired and overwhelmed,
and needs to take a step back.
I like that emotionally honest savior.
 
But one thing I don’t like.
Is a mean Jesus.
A cruel Jesus.
 
And make no mistake,
it is cruel for Jesus to call this woman, a dog.

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Joyful and Disbelieving and Wondering

Sunday, April 26, 2020 – The 7th Sunday of remote worship.

Luke 24: 13-35

I used to do a pub bible study on Monday nights for a number years at Colby College,
it was one of my many unsuccessful initiatives.
The secret of college chaplaincy is that we really have no idea what we’re doing.
because the population is ever changing.
So we try stuff,
and it usually doesn’t work,
and we adjust and try again.
 
I persisted with pub bible study for longer than I probably should have,
because the 1-2 people who did come were invariably nice to be around.

And because I once – right after Easter –
got to read and study the Emmaus Road story,
with someone who was reading it for the very first time.
 
I know I say this most weeks,
but this is one of my very favorite stories out there,
and to read it with an adult,
who’s taking faith and scripture seriously,
is a really special thing.
This is one of those stories, I think,
that the more we sit with it,
the more it opens up.
 
so much richness here,
and so many questions,
not the least of which: Why couldn’t they recognize him at the start?
And where did he go at the end?

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How can this be?

Luke 1:26-38

I sat down to write,
over the past couple of weeks.
In short, disconnected snippets.
I try not to talk about busyness,
because it’s basic, and boring,
and it’s a cultural disease.
But I was stretched the last last few days and weeks,
so my writing process wasn’t as cohesive as I like.
And I sat down on Monday,
and realized I had outlined,
drawing from this most famous of advent texts –
the annunciation to Mary –
point by point,
paragraph by paragraph,
exactly the same sermon,
I offered at Easter here,
some 7 months ago:

 
Again the angel comes,
saying “Don’t be afraid.”
Because that’s what angels always say.
 
again we have a model of discipleship,
in a female protagonist named Mary,
because – let’s be honest –
the women were the best disciples,

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What is Church?

Matthew 18:15-20

The story goes.
That a year ago, or so.
On a Sunday not unlike this one,
late in the semester,
A congregation – A church –
gathered at this very time and in this very space,
that was made up entirely,
of the Jansson family,
a small choir,
our student managers,
and a guest preacher.

The details are not all that important,
but suffice it to say that this congregation,
this church,
had hit a rough patch,
and not for the first time.
Pushing the boundaries of Jesus’ assurance,
regarding 2 or 3 being gathered.

I came to interview around that time,
and it wasn’t clear to me then,
that this church was a sustainable enterprise.

Most universities in on the East Coast and Midwest,
were founded by churches,
and most of them held Sunday services,
through most of their history,
but most have similarly abandoned the practice.

I’m glad we did not,

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What is Truth

John 18: 33-38

I thought it’d be fun to start today
with a little bible quiz, whaddaya think?
Pencils out, books away.
Just shout the answer when you know it
From which book of the bible do the following passages come:


1.    And the Word became flesh and lived among us, and we have seen his glory, the glory as of a father’s only son, full of grace and truth.
 
2.    I am the way and the truth and the life.  No one comes to the Father except through me. 
 
3.    And you will know the truth, and the truth will make you free.
(John 1, 14, 8 are the answers)
 
It’s fair to say, I think,
that John’s gospel is obsessed with the concept of truth.
It comes up dozens of times from beginning to end,
far more than any other text,
and all the other gospels combined.
John is, in essence, our first theologian.
He is not so much attempting to tell an accurate story,
as he is trying to paint us a picture,
of what it might mean,
that the Word became flesh and dwelt among us.
That eternity entered time and space.
That Wisdom became enfleshed and entombed.
That God could become human.
 
And the places he lands,
the pictures he paints, above all:
are grace and truth.
 
But when the question is asked directly,
by Pilate to Jesus:
What is truth?
There is only silence.

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Still?

Psalm 46

I have long wanted to take up today’s question,
which comes in many forms,
but I believe I heard posed first thusly by our very own,
Professor Peter Jansson.
“when were you last still?”

Stillness feels to me an urgent concern,
in a world in which we’re constantly connected,
constantly comparing ourselves to another.
in a community in which there’s literally always something we ought to be doing:
an assignment, an email, a paper, a proposal.
in a world that values us for our output and production,
in the midst of a newscycle,
in which there’s always somethings that commands our attention,
our anger, our grief, and action.
Stillness is a bold and countercultural thing.
And hard to achieve. 

And my answer to this question,
when was I last still?,
tends to be when I am set apart.

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What is Family?

Luke 15: 1- 32, Sunday 9/29/19, Rooke Chapel Congregation

Family is a big word.
A sticky word.
For many of us, a given.
A rock.
Perhaps for you,
the word brings up memories of loud dinners around shared tables,
or quiet moments, vacations, sporting events,
love and connection and joy.
Perhaps for you,
the concept is more fraught,
strained and complicated and hard.
Perhaps painful,
or full of longing,
or regret.

For the students among us,
there are, I’m sure, manifold changes in your relationships
to parents and siblings.
New experiences of mature connection,
new possibilities,
new difficulties,

and, of course, for many during the college years,
we experience grief first-hand for the first time,
when we lose a close friend, professor, grandparent, or parent.
This, too, is family.

And it turns out,
our scripture’s story about family,
is more nuanced than we might care to think.

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